i should be happy but i'm not. i still don't know why but i've been in one giant bad mood for the last couple months and i'm tired of it. i'm also tired of pretending to be happy whenever i'm around someone. i think it's just everything right now. school, having no real friends in this stupid town of bryan, me being self critical like usual, my headaches which i've had for the past week like everyday, and most of all not getting to talk to fran much, i hate it but you pretty much control how happy i am. well i'm going to take some more medicine and get today over with. basketball game at 9. exams. same stuff. yep

school is closed today!! woot woot. anyway SLAM was alright. the band rocked.haha they did SAdie HAwkins Dance!! and my talk thing was alright. could have been better though. hope ur having a wonderful time Fran and Sommie!!!!!!

soo game tonight! time to tear it up. i'm gonna be straight up baller even though i'm white. i really hope Fran can come to camp this year in ohio!!! it will fell soo..right. i think it would make things feel a lil more normal :) . and sommie i hope you come as well!!! and fran be careful cause my hugs might squish you

wellll i'm super stressed out cause of SLAM, all the exams, and my career project. ugh why is everything all around the same weekend/week?

i'm pretty happy because we're supposed to get 6-12 inches of snow on sunday...at least that's what everybody is sayin. and due to a couple of surprises today i'm feelin kinda smart!! i literally didn't know much about the u.s. history or algebra 2 OGT. but i got advanced on both of them! which is the highest category you can get. but i really don't care bout it. all i care is that i got a free homework pass for both classes :D yay. please Fran or Sommie. tell me a good idea for this years fine arts!!! "compelled by love" is the theme

doug

so i changed my profile picture thing on here. i figured it would turn on doug or somethin. anyway i have just been assigned to run this saturday's SLAM service :) i have to get everything ready, put chairs and tables out, get the sound system boomin. and give the opening talk(sermon) i'm a lil nervous about it. i'm going to be talking about the importance of local churches working and fellowshiping together. to remember that even though we go to a certain denomination church that we are all included in "the church" that God describes in the Bible. mostly cause it feels like the churches in bryan don't know anybody from the other churches in bryan. we just need to fellowship more and maybe even help out with eachothers ministries such as the food pantry or the homeless shelter. anywho wish me luck!! :)